WHO AM I TO GO?

(a parable for anyone who has ever asked)

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Who Am I That I Should Go?

In my experience, there’s a question that shows up reliably
right before something good is about to happen.

It arrives dressed as humility.
It sounds reasonable.
It even sounds spiritual sometimes.

The question is this:

Who am I to do this?
Who am I that I should go?

Moses asked it at a burning bush.
Standing barefoot on holy ground,
face hidden,
heart hammering —
who am I, that I should go?

God didn’t answer the question.

God said: I will be with you.
God said: I AM has sent you.
God said: I will be with your mouth.
And then — go.

The authority was never Moses’s to manufacture.
It was only ever his to receive.

Now Is the Accepted Time

I thought about this today
during a phone call with a friend
as randomly selected scripture
turned out to be
the reflection of something we both needed to know.

Namely, to know ourselves as we are known.

And right there, plain as anything:

This is what the Lord says:

“In the time of my favor I will answer you,
    and in the day of salvation I will help you;
I will keep you and will make you
    to be a covenant for the people,
to restore the land
    and to reassign its desolate inheritances.” (Isaiah 49:8, NIV)

Behold, now is the accepted time.

Not when you feel ready.
Not when the tech is sorted
or the admin is caught up
or the doubts have quieted down.

Now.

Here Am I. Send Me.

Here is what I have learned
about the question who am I:

It is not a humble question.
It is a stalling question.

The humble answer —
the Isaiah answer —
the one even Moses eventually grew into —
the only answer that ever moved anything —
is simply:

Here am I. Send me.

Not because I’m qualified.
Not because I’ve figured it out.
But because now is the time
and I am the one who is here
and Love doesn’t wait
for a more convenient moment.

Go Ye Out to Meet Him

Go ye out to meet him.

Not him as in a person necessarily —
though sometimes yes, that too.
Him as in the moment.
Him as in the call.
Him as in whatever is asking
to come through you today
that only you can deliver
in exactly this way
at exactly this hour.

A singer may feed five thousand.
A mother may raise the dead.
One conversation
at exactly the right time
may change everything
for someone you haven’t met yet.

You Are Authorized

You are authorized.

Not by your credentials
or your confidence
or your clarity about next steps.

By the same I AM
that sent Moses to Pharaoh
barefoot and stammering
and entirely sufficient
for the task at hand.

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Now is the accepted time.

This moment.
This post.
This voice.
This showing up
exactly as you are
with exactly what you have
for exactly whoever needs it today.

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Thank you, drive through.

Jess

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Scripture References

• Exodus 3:1–14 — the burning bush; “Who am I, that I should go?” (3:11); “I will be with thee” (3:12); “I AM hath sent me” (3:14)
• Exodus 4:10–13 — slow of speech; “I will be with thy mouth” (4:12)
• 1 Corinthians 13:12 — “then shall I know even as also I am known”
• Isaiah 49:8 — “In the time of my favor I will answer you…”
• 2 Corinthians 6:2 — “Behold, now is the accepted time”
• Isaiah 6:8 — “Here am I; send me.”
• Matthew 25:6 — “Go ye out to meet him.”
• Matthew 14:13–21 — feeding the five thousand (also John 6:1–14)
• Hebrews 11:35 — “Women received their dead raised to life again”